I look at the sky & look for some sign from God through the clouds. I do my quite time, read my Bible carefully& wait for a word from Him. I wait for some one to call me& tell me "check ur bank account!" in vain. some times out of frustration I shout " God ! I need you to do something! I can't handle this anymore!". But my God is silent. Doesn't He see what I'm going through? Doesn't He know my needs? Then why is He silent?
I remember a verse from Isaiah, which I don't remember exactly but it goes something like this..
" My hand is not shortened that I can not save you
nor My ears became numb that I cannot hear you"
I know Lord! I know all that stuff. But then why you are not intervening?
I know what's wrong. My faith is not working!
FAITH! FAITH! FAITH!
I go out in rain, looking at the sky I say " in the name of my God, STOP!" but it doesn't. I come back to my home drenched.
I look at the water tap in my office, knowing very well that there's a problem with the motor & there's no water in the tank, I say " water, COME!". It doesn't!
what's wrong? why did He say " if you have faith as small as mustard seed...you can order the mountain to be moved& thrown in the sea, & it will be done" then? Is my faith, not even as big(?) as a mustard seed? knowing that is not going to help my morale.
God....ARE YOU LISTENING? THIS "FAITH" THING YOU GAVE ME, IS NOT WORKING! It's only making me look like a fool.
I know what He'll be saying. "Faith" is not some kind of feeling! It's not looking at something with magician like a look on your face & ordering it imitating God's voice you hear in the movies!
What is this "FAITH" then Sir?
Faith is a seed that got to be nurtured. It's a strength that got to be exercised, regularly.
Faith is the outcome of a continuous fellowship with Mr perfect! i.e God!
Where's your faith? He asked His disciples once. & they mumbled. They forgot to carry that thing that morning!
Or being the close buddies of the God Himself, they never needed to apply faith that it got "rusted!"
Same thing happened with me. Yes, He gave me faith in the initial days of salvation& showed me how it works!
But then, as time passed by, I stopped applying it. stopped exercising it.
& after some time, two villains came into my life.
Villain no. 1: Money!
Money started doing almost everything that my " faith " was doing previously.& it's easy too. But the only difference is, money starts decreasing when you start using. But faith increases the more you put it to use.
& the villain no. 2: those contacts that come with success.
All I had to do is browse through my phone book & see who can help me in what. Just a call away! & oh, Josh! how can you forget even your God is just a call away! & you don't even be in debt of a help to your heavenly Father.
& that's how my friends, My faith got rusted. It got fragile! & It's not working anymore!
But I know, If I seek Him, He would be found. & He would help my faith again.
So, here I am. Exercising my faith. want to get back what I've lost, at any cost. even if needs me to wake up at 4 in the morning& meditate on His word, the way I used to do in the initial days of my salvation.
Friends...do you have faith? Then that's all you need! protect it. Use it when troubles, tribulations& challenges come. Exercise it!& it will grow. carry it with you everyday...to you work, in your journeys, where ever you go.
It's the weapon God gave us, do not let it rust!
It's a gift He gave us. do not let it waste!
